Is it Numb?

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Or is it just a fraction effect of too much stayed at home.

"The idea is priceless, you never know until you feel the way I feel today."

For someone like me, hearing this come out from the closest one wouldn't bring any impact to change the way I thought. I still have nothing wrong with my routine. 
Even today after a long time, I realize something that I never know before: emotional numbness. Feeling flat physically and mentally, failing to recognize the other feeling, lack of joyousness in every I do (hobbies or work). When the body does its routine, my soul feels flat. Having a boundary with friends and acquaintances. But I still feel that I exist in the right way. Because I laugh when someone laughs, I looking at and following someone's story when they tell me their own, extremely relaxed for something, and I still believe what I should believe. 

Maybe this time is a war between my positive and negative buttons of consciousness.

I just didn't recognize what's going on and what's wrong with me? So far I just believe that today: I just can't find an idea as easily come out as usual. Just it. 

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