My Excuses

 It's been a couple of months.  I admitted that I'm wrong. Regardless everything that happened.. I'm the one who responsible for my life. From this I learned a lot. From someone who bring light to help me see things I forgot. A dream, a good memories, everything that I've been trough. Until last these 3 days. I spent my time with a young woman. She know my wounds, one of the person who bring the light to help me see, and knowing what I hope for in my life. Thanks God, through her.. I try to regulate anything that happen in life. We learn a lot trough one on one discussion. We help and try to fix our wounds. We dream together.. Until today, this evening. I was hopeless.. I said sorry to her that I cant make it, to submit something.  I'm gonna say goodbye for a thing and focus to my research, right after I read my Supervisor text. But I open the web and I read that the deadline was postponed again.. until this last month. I feel so grateful. I have something to fight ...

 Hemm emang beneran adik yang belum bisa banggain kakak-kakaknya.. Tapi terima kasih untuk dukungannya. Jadi enggak rasa sendirian.. Kayaknya harus nemuin jalanku sendiri deh.. biar cepet selesai semuanya.. semoga cara/ jalan ini bisa aku pake untuk seumur hidupku. Biar kakak-kakakku juga bahagia punya aku. Anyway tis 10 May again.. Was gloomy.. but I did my things. I going outside again..I dunno what happen tomorrow. I didnt regret myself on the past.. and today is my sister birthday. Hope this give power to me.. I know im not mature enough to handle myself. But okay.. I'll eat "the frog" tomorrw. then do exercise again... I know the most its late.. its same as like I know im getting fat and gain weight.. everyday I realize that. But hope tomorrow is a good day. 

 Hi.. It's been two years. Hey.. btw for babies 97 out there, your 29 era is coming this year.. congrats for it..  I dunno what to response to this age. The more I think about it, the more I far away from getting mature. I am. In any aspect: finance, love, education, lifestyle- eating and myself. LOL. That's hilarious. When I didnt who when to say what I want, when I ask others thoughts about what I need to take, or when I discuss about insight.. but not in the right person, d*mn.. I didnt know at the same time I just put my left feet into a deep depression. This month, I was doubt myself, well even until today. Why I take this path two years ago, if in the end I dont have friends at all. Why I so wrong calculate myself and didnt do SWOT to me about to take that decision, if now I fall for depression and bad person. I know, if my old me see me right now, I gonna angry at me.. or disagree of everything that I did nowadays. I thought, become a yes person or smile to every time p...

 Halooo... I'm back!!!  was an emotional weeks for me this December and I got a lesson from it. You know what, sometimes we don't know truly what is going on ourself, right. Or it's only me ahaha.. alright I guess it's only me then. Few days ago, was Friday, was great Friday actually. Umm.. had a breakfast, did a last final exam paper and discuss with friends.. till noon. Enjoy the day with some brain storming or we can say its just a great chit chat before end of semester. well even though we still have tasks to settle... it can be a short break. was continue self brain storming about research till 7 pm with few class mates. Even we play table tennis in the lobby faculty, well it was set up by securities and all of us stumbled at there.. was fun but not expert one, thanks pak Satpam for let us doing this like our coping mechanism ehehe.. Then.. it wrapped by class mate discuss with dinner together.  9 pm arrived home, finished everything to ready for sleep by 9.30 pm. ...

THANKS FOR BEING ALIVE

Hi, I don't have any idea about what happen lately. Just let it be. I met people, some bring a positive vibe. She told to me like being patience and let see what we got later. Another person said that I have a potential to do something and should be brave. A friend also told that we can't control people and how they think about you so, chill. I wish me aging with an attitude. I hope we all grow well. However, I am doing mistakes every day because I'm human. We are, all.  I thought I made problems to myself. I enrolled in another job vacancy. course, or a simple activity for this month. Like hey, I'm so tired but I'm happy when passed it. But the course going to happen for the next month. Fun thing on when I was joining a job recruitment, when I on the step of interview user, I met my previous team leader (when I work for an expedition company) on the prosses of that interview without I know it before and going to be my SPV if I get acceptance. But didn't, so it...

Hi,  In this afternoon I remember that I have blog. So I'm here.. It's been a year, in my new job. Work from home. Met colleague online and doing everything online. It's fun but whether online or in office you still find some obstacles there. Since I work remotely, sometimes I go home to meet my parents. Went to my sister's house to meet my cute niece and you know, I have a one-year cute nephew. I spent Hari Raya at home, finally. I can go to holiday with my family like go to the beach, visit to some place or city with them. Or just being at home. That makes me know what I didn't see when I far from my family. Like how the response my parents when they are sick or struggle with something, sometimes they hide the problems from me and wont me worried. Sometimes I got the moment when I so really grateful that I have them. In their age I still see their smile, I still can talk a lot of things with them or doing a silly thing together.  But I realize that... that is a gi...