My Excuses

 It's been a couple of months.  I admitted that I'm wrong. Regardless everything that happened.. I'm the one who responsible for my life. From this I learned a lot. From someone who bring light to help me see things I forgot. A dream, a good memories, everything that I've been trough. Until last these 3 days. I spent my time with a young woman. She know my wounds, one of the person who bring the light to help me see, and knowing what I hope for in my life. Thanks God, through her.. I try to regulate anything that happen in life. We learn a lot trough one on one discussion. We help and try to fix our wounds. We dream together.. Until today, this evening. I was hopeless.. I said sorry to her that I cant make it, to submit something.  I'm gonna say goodbye for a thing and focus to my research, right after I read my Supervisor text. But I open the web and I read that the deadline was postponed again.. until this last month. I feel so grateful. I have something to fight ...

 Hemm emang beneran adik yang belum bisa banggain kakak-kakaknya.. Tapi terima kasih untuk dukungannya. Jadi enggak rasa sendirian.. Kayaknya harus nemuin jalanku sendiri deh.. biar cepet selesai semuanya.. semoga cara/ jalan ini bisa aku pake untuk seumur hidupku. Biar kakak-kakakku juga bahagia punya aku. Anyway tis 10 May again.. Was gloomy.. but I did my things. I going outside again..I dunno what happen tomorrow. I didnt regret myself on the past.. and today is my sister birthday. Hope this give power to me.. I know im not mature enough to handle myself. But okay.. I'll eat "the frog" tomorrw. then do exercise again... I know the most its late.. its same as like I know im getting fat and gain weight.. everyday I realize that. But hope tomorrow is a good day. 

 Hi.. It's been two years. Hey.. btw for babies 97 out there, your 29 era is coming this year.. congrats for it..  I dunno what to response to this age. The more I think about it, the more I far away from getting mature. I am. In any aspect: finance, love, education, lifestyle- eating and myself. LOL. That's hilarious. When I didnt who when to say what I want, when I ask others thoughts about what I need to take, or when I discuss about insight.. but not in the right person, d*mn.. I didnt know at the same time I just put my left feet into a deep depression. This month, I was doubt myself, well even until today. Why I take this path two years ago, if in the end I dont have friends at all. Why I so wrong calculate myself and didnt do SWOT to me about to take that decision, if now I fall for depression and bad person. I know, if my old me see me right now, I gonna angry at me.. or disagree of everything that I did nowadays. I thought, become a yes person or smile to every time p...