Raining Season

 Halooo... I'm back!!! 

was an emotional weeks for me this December and I got a lesson from it. You know what, sometimes we don't know truly what is going on ourself, right. Or it's only me ahaha.. alright I guess it's only me then. Few days ago, was Friday, was great Friday actually. Umm.. had a breakfast, did a last final exam paper and discuss with friends.. till noon. Enjoy the day with some brain storming or we can say its just a great chit chat before end of semester. well even though we still have tasks to settle... it can be a short break. was continue self brain storming about research till 7 pm with few class mates. Even we play table tennis in the lobby faculty, well it was set up by securities and all of us stumbled at there.. was fun but not expert one, thanks pak Satpam for let us doing this like our coping mechanism ehehe.. Then.. it wrapped by class mate discuss with dinner together. 

9 pm arrived home, finished everything to ready for sleep by 9.30 pm. Well decide to sleep early but. What the heck? I cried with no reason. Even I put away my devices, hope to not get distracted about anything from it. I cant! I still keep cried, even till it get tired. Was shock and wondering why it keep continue.. in the middle of I cried lol.. because it cant stop.. it's like yourself didn't hear you and I was lost control. was take a deep breath, and grab a water, even two glass.. and just let it flow thinking what do this body want. lol. Few mins later, it stop directly looking for something to read. 

In the morning, had a great mood. Feel like I sleep for long time, but I saw the time was 4 a.m. Well.. I woke up at 4am. Amazing, lol.. wake up in the right time for pray, unfortunately I'm period. so.. 

but continue to control my mind with some activities before work at 9 a.m. Its work, I mean I focus on at the moment. doing laundry, make a break fast, take a bath, and eat the food with music few mins looking for papers, doing skimming lol and enjoy the music with solo karaoke till 9a.m. Was talk to a friend by chat also while the work was not hectic yet lol... and it help me to regulate my emotions. Thanks for the time buddy.. 

So there are topics that I worried about, and I think it so deeply and stop by that. I mean I didn't looking till the end. I mean the end was its not happen yet. Its just the what if condition, that its not happen yet. Feels like its a good alarm to me for not take it easy or should focus on it, but think to deep and overthink is so not good for health. It was my fault after all.. so yeah ahaha.. don"t overthink!!!!!!!!! 

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oh its time for me to focus working.. after all.. Happy Sunday! It just start raining btw. Wuiiihh bakal suka laa kerja santai di rumah plus hujan.