My Excuses

THANKS FOR BEING ALIVE

Hi, I don't have any idea about what happen lately. Just let it be. I met people, some bring a positive vibe. She told to me like being patience and let see what we got later. Another person said that I have a potential to do something and should be brave. A friend also told that we can't control people and how they think about you so, chill. I wish me aging with an attitude. I hope we all grow well. However, I am doing mistakes every day because I'm human. We are, all.  I thought I made problems to myself. I enrolled in another job vacancy. course, or a simple activity for this month. Like hey, I'm so tired but I'm happy when passed it. But the course going to happen for the next month. Fun thing on when I was joining a job recruitment, when I on the step of interview user, I met my previous team leader (when I work for an expedition company) on the prosses of that interview without I know it before and going to be my SPV if I get acceptance. But didn't, so it...

Hi,  In this afternoon I remember that I have blog. So I'm here.. It's been a year, in my new job. Work from home. Met colleague online and doing everything online. It's fun but whether online or in office you still find some obstacles there. Since I work remotely, sometimes I go home to meet my parents. Went to my sister's house to meet my cute niece and you know, I have a one-year cute nephew. I spent Hari Raya at home, finally. I can go to holiday with my family like go to the beach, visit to some place or city with them. Or just being at home. That makes me know what I didn't see when I far from my family. Like how the response my parents when they are sick or struggle with something, sometimes they hide the problems from me and wont me worried. Sometimes I got the moment when I so really grateful that I have them. In their age I still see their smile, I still can talk a lot of things with them or doing a silly thing together.  But I realize that... that is a gi...

Just like the others that have gone through several days when they just wanna stay at home or bedroom. Sounds like they are genuinely in their comfort zone and it is gonna be really tough to beat. Well, lately I am in that zone. It fully got me lazy to go outside from my boarding house till there is something important that force me to go. Another part of me feels bored doing these routines.  It seems like every day (besides work) I do exactly the same way to spend my day. Wake up - eat - cook fast food - do brainstorming- bored - watch old photos/ videos - do the brainstorming - eat - browse the internet - do the brainstorming and contemplating about what I have done- sleep. I have no idea what I am supposed to do to make it more fun yet.  But heiiii.... where is that young curiosity about something when you have free time vibes gone?

 Good evening, folks...  I don't know where to start but these several days I feel like up and down physically. Well, nowadays I don't wanna like the old song from: did you know Abdul and The Coffee Theory, yep spending three days on the bed hahaha big no for that.   Okay, I didn't know exactly the cause of how I got sick. That I know in the Sunday evening subconsciously I just don't wanna put off my mask at work. Like I didn't comfortable like usual. I didn't comfortable moving around or just wanna glued in my chair, that obviously I feel it wasn't me, that usually when I didn't get the hint about the case of my work, I was running into the SPV or some friend and make a clear something. On Monday was the same day, I didn't get lit to doing anything, but I still asked and discuss something.  The thing that make this health get worse than before was I went home at 01.00 AM, and I'm okay with that. But it wasn't my lucky day, maybe. I forgot to...

 Hello good morning, I hope this note would be finished before the afternoon. Hahaha.. even though I started to write at 10.19 AM. 😂😂 Today is already the 13th day since the new year of 2022 yeah... However, it feel just yesterday. I cry over the night because my plan for the new year was only just a dream. What I feel right now just yeah I feel ridiculous for all the things related to that. Since I prepare for several weeks before, until I rearrange all the schedule that related to that. I ever hear that when you make a bad plan, you are going to plan a failure. But It's okay, I learn from that nyahahaa..  I don't have a fancy resolution for this year, but one thing is for sure, don't compare yourself to other life. If we looking for the winner of the happiest or saddest thing of human life, well we never find the winner. There will always be someone who has more and more than me, us, you. So be humble, well I'm still trying for that. I have another news, the first a...

              Hello, the end of the year. I am back and feel like I wanna write something here. Even though still not useful at all. But on the 31 of December, I got something different from my routine this month. I woke up at 00.12 AM. I thought it was morning already. Then how hard I try to sleep, starting counting from one to something, listening to podcast or music, or just closing my eyes and doing nothing. Still... I can't fall asleep. While doing refund my tickets by phone...then sad again but still I can't sleep again at all. HAHAHAHA Actually I hate that situation. But I still try all the things that can make me sleep. Until at 3.00 AM I felt sleepy again.                Because of my period, I wake up at 7.00 AM in the morning. Well, I feel lazy to do anything, even just walking outside. I dunno but these feet bring me to the park near my boarding house. So I listening songs with the view of p...